un- / ne-

un- inspired by the book the ministry     of utmost happiness by arundhati roy     un-seen does not mean simply not being seen. do you ever notice dark shadows of the lost souls turning white before their purifying self-immolation or are their black eyes too dark to be perceived? un-heard does not mean simply not being heard. poetry is nowadays written, not spoken. every life is a poem but nobody knows that there is a scrap of the poet's soul in every word of his lyric, hence at the end every poet dies in silence. un-wanted does not mean simply not being wanted. the empty feeling of aimless wandering the deserted streets when all the doors are closing on you and the whispering voices behind the windows - shouting run forward fast - sound like the call of the void because you do not know where to go next. so you simply draw the sign of surrender above your head with your blood and wait (and nobody cares). being blind does not mean that people don't see, being deaf does not mean that people don't hear, it's only when people turn their heads away from suffering that merely the taste of ashes remains on the banks of the muted rivers and pockets full of stones like entry tickets to the feast of eternity. what is the meaning of the unholy quietude of the heart in the hour of darkness?

ne- navdihnjeno s knjigo ministrstvo za najvišjo srečo arundhati roy ne-viden ne pomeni preprosto ne biti viden. ali kdaj opaziš temne sence izgubljenih duš, ki postanejo bele pred svojim očiščevalnim samosežigom ali pa so njihove črne oči pretemne, da bi jih zaznal? ne-slišen ne pomeni preprosto ne biti slišen. poezija se dandanes piše, ne govori. vsako življenje je pesem, a nihče ne ve, da je delček pesnikove duše v vsaki besedi njegove lirike, zato vsak pesnik na koncu umre v tišini. ne-zaželen ne pomeni preprosto ne biti zaželen. prazen občutek brezciljnega tavanja po zapuščenh ulicah, ko se vsa vrata zapirajo nate in šepetajoči glasovi za okni - ki kričijo, teci naprej, pa hitro - zvenijo kot klic praznine, ker ne veš, kam naprej. tako preprosto narišeš znak predaje nad svojo glavo s svojo krvjo in čakaš (pa nikogar ne briga). biti slep ne pomeni, da ljudje ne vidijo. biti gluh ne pomeni, da ljudje ne slišijo. šele ko ljudje obrnejo glavo stran od trpljenja, ostane le okus po pepelu na bregovih utišanih rek in žepi, polni kamenja kot karte za vstop na pojedino večnosti. kaj pomeni nesveta tišina srca v uri teme?

© Aleks 2023

Datum objave: 9. 3. 2023